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Ramadhan....

2006-10-06T04:12:00.000+07:00

First of all.... Have a blessed Ramadhan yaaa everybody.......

Woooaaa...masih ngantuk beut, abis siaran saur tadi... jam 2-4 pagi dan edan de gwe bangun jam 10 saja pagi ini. Btw, seperti biasa de kan ada wake up my dear gitu di PUASAHUR.... jadi pengen nelfon famz di Italy de, tapi apa daya.... and actually, gw udah nyolong sebenernya..hehe...nelfon eugenia!! Penyiar...penyiar... ga geunah!!!

Ramadhan ini berasa peaceful banget de... everything seems so easy de, dari mulai yg ijin cuti langsung di approve, trus finally tema SPW fixed walopun pake acara under-pressure pak boss yg nggilani ituh, dapet rejeki ramadhan terus :p... and eventho i'm far away from home, it feels like mom is so near beside...^_^

I'm listening to Ondrasik right now, it's "I JUST LOVE U"... kenapa yah ada org yg sebegitu ikhlas mencintai orang laen?? Without benefits... maybe becuz they already know the meaning of true love??? and me?? I still have to find out...i guess.. the only one i sincerely love is my famz....... yang ada selama ini mungkin rasa nyaman aja gitu, makanya suka aneh de..... giliran diajak "commit", aku segera kabur........ *this is really bad.......badly so bad....

Hari ini Jumat yahhh....... And lately, bulan puasa ini banyak banget yg meninggal. Jumat lalu... Novan sms jam 12an malem kali yah, kalo adeknya Keisha dipanggil Allah. Trus aq sempet baca blognya seseorang bernama Inong (i don't know her actually, just love reading her blog about how she build a really happy family...:p) and she passed away just a few weeks ago on Friday. Dua2nya hari Juma't.... Ga tau de, they both are still very young... and either me would know when my time will come.

Bersabda Rasulullah SAW...
"Barangsiapa meninggal dunia pada malam Jumat atau hari Jumat, maka ia akan terlindung dari siksa kubur, dan di hari kiamat ia akan datang dengan tanda-tanda para syuhada padanya."
Hari Jumat adalah hari dimana terlepas dari siksa kubur.
Abu Ya'la mengemukakan sebuah hadis diperoleh dari Anas Ra yang menyebut Rasululullah saw pernah bersabda, "Barangsiapa yang meninggal dunia pada hari Jumat, ia akan terhindar dari siksa kubur".

Uhm... Selamat Puasa.... semoga berkah, semoga niat semula masih berjalan dengan ridha Allah, semoga diberi umur panjang sampai jumat-jumat berikutnya... amien......

TORA --> Abso -fashion- lutely DANGEROUS!!!

2006-09-03T20:20:00.000+07:00

Seneng bangeeuuddd... Makobu is back sama format rekwes yg 2-2 which means ga bingung lagi nyari2 lagu indo ^_^.

Another thing is.... aq AKHIRNYAAAAAAA ketemu sama TORA SUDIRO!!!!!! hweehehehe... In the same stage, cuma beda bayaran de keknya..hehe.. gwe ngemsi dan anak2 extravaganza jadi talent-artist gitu de. I was over-excited, luckily i didn't fell or got blacked out on the stage... forgot to downloaded the photos we made, so....prolly it'll be posted later... :p

Tora is soooo nice, and i think he looks more gorgeous off-TV. I sat right beside him... and we kinda have a short conversation begitu de. Uh well.... norak sekali yah kedengerannya?? Tapi aku senang sekaliiii....^_^. This is not the first time I met an actor, but meeting Tora is a different thing. It's just like a meeting with Tom Hanks or Tommy Tjokro sajah.... *three in love person i'd always wanna talk with....

Huh....pengen bermimpi..... dan pas pulang ternyata aq ketinggalan celana jeans tercintaaaa....... *jgn2 dibawa pulang Tora lagi....hwahahahahaha.......

Apa SajaLah Haiiii....

2006-08-29T17:59:00.000+07:00

Hey..hey…there…all!!!

It’s Tuesday nite babe… abis siaran Take Out tadi siang.. tapi secara Makobu skrg ber-format 2-1 (2 indo dan 1 manca), I'm a bit lazy gituh muterin lagu2nya…beneran de, bukannya ga semangat nasionalis. Honestly stok lagu indo-kuwh termasuk parah banget… jadi yg direquest bungkus de, the rest paling2 keluarnya Malique lagi…Ecoutez lagi…Ada Band lagi…Sore…Glenn lagi… dan kalo uda yg macem2nya band jaman skrg… whatever… Ungu, Naff, Samson, Kerispatih, à weeee…MALES CING!!! Jadilah, siap2 keluar studio kalo ada yg request such a song… ato aku foto2 dunk..hehe…dan sodara2 tadi ada META -->penyanyi baru yg ga tau de uda emak2 tapi doyannya Britney Spears....but had to admit she's damn beautiful for a woman at her age...mulussssss....abisssss.... and I had to interview de, biasa lah...peres...peres..hehe....

And here I am listening to Joni Mitchell – Both Sides Now, trying to relax… berasa lagi harus slow down a bit… Somehow, I do feel the confort of….

I look that clouds from both sides now

from ups and downs..

still somehow …

I really don’t know life…

at all…

Long time no write… just wanna share few things I did…

Well…I kinda feel confuse about some stuff these days, but I think it’s getting clearer. Emang jalan yg terbaik itu adalah SOLAT!! Ga tau ini malah dikasih cobaan lagi ato emang jalannya, tapi yg pasti tiba2 yg “kabur” itu jadi sedikit jelas… walopun sebenernya susah sekali untuk menyadarkan diri kalo… this is the way for me. Susah sekali untuk ngelawan diri sendiri dari ego yang emang selangit ini.

Laporan Rencana uda selesey dan SPK uda berakhir… sets me free.Sooooo happy marryy wihhiiii... got A for Studio Perencanaan Kota-kuwh (SPK itu). Berasa ga rugi kerja rodi satu semesteran ini... dan IPK kedongkrak bgt, secara ini 4 sks gitu. Welcome to SPW de skrg… we’re busy with the concept and I’m dizzy with those agro-wisata ga penting, secara anak2 pengennya agro-industri. The good news bahwa semua matkul yg aku ulang nilainya alhamdulillah de, EWK (ekonomi wilayah dan kota) dapet B+ dan Peng.Transportasi dapet A saja…^_^

I just watched “Noel” last nite. Pretty cool with Robin Williams, Susan Sarandon, Penelope Cruz and that sexy *sluuurrrppp* Jake Gylenhaal on it. Uh yeah, miracle does exist!!

Met my ex… Yadi, and had really nice conversation. He still the same old Yadi with a little bit differences on how he manages his money now..hehe… mengingat gaya hidupnya yg tidak akan bisa saya ikuti itu :p. We talked a lot, some jokes about days ago, about his business…and I guess he found the right lady now.

Having superb time with bestfriends… gila-gila dan makan mulu. Sampe2 bikin procrast lagi niy, kerjaan LQ dan growth-share tertunda…hehe… okay anyway…he’s already back now…not so far away… to work.

Guess everybody have heard about the “butterfly effect”??--> of which I think a lot these days… a chaos theory dengan metafora kepakan sayap seekor rama-rama di hutan Amazon hari ini bisa memicu tornado yg bikin Manhattan ancur tahun depannya?? Kalo suka sama film Jurassic Park pasti pada tau de yg fictional mathematician disitu Ian Malcolm, used to explain the inherent instability of a habitat may cause danger. Ini juga yg kejadian sama dunia kita… kayak Amrik yg lagi kena gelombang panas gara2 lingkungan rusak. Ato one simple movie The Butterfly Effect-nya Ashton Kutcher or Sliding Doors-nya Gwyneth Paltrow?? Where the actions u take always have unintended consequences… even when u think about it deeply enough.. u guess!!

I mean… this butterfly effect thing, taught me the fact that what I do right now will affect things in the future.

Everything changed everything…

For want a nail, the shoe was lost

For want of a shoe, the horse was lost

For want a horse, the rider was lost

For want of a rider, the battle was lost

For want of a battle, the kingdom was lost

Or in my case…

For want a “lover”, the “trophy” was lost…………ato sebaliknya de…hahahahaha…

Maybe if I hadn’t saw that hot looking stuff and had I slowed down a little to get a good look on how precious thing I have at that time. There could have been millions of reason… the story will never be the same. Huhu…what am I talking about?? Even ¼ of hours would prevent other differences.

Tapi ayah juga pernah bilang… waktu itu dalam konteks kita lagi ngomongin “planning” siy.

One setting may not work for another setting… There’s no one best setting…the important things is when u decide a choice, u know what’s best with all the risks…huhu…this is the hard part. I never hate taking risks but sometimes I couldn’t see which one best…

What I hope to explain here is how sensitive the future is on present (or past). How events that seem insignificant…will change what people will be in some years from now. Dan itu semua bikin aku jadi hati-hati (semoga ga over-carefull de) dalam berpikir, berkata, dan bertindak. Like I never could predict how they will affect me in the future… then, is it what u called DESTINY?? Or you’re really the one who decides that destiny?? * here’s the riddle…for you :p (kata Ondrasik… FIND THE ANSWERS THRU LIFE BABY…)

FaNTaSTic FouR...

2006-07-30T20:40:00.000+07:00

This is my turn....babe....

Four jobs I've had:
1. Private Teacher
2. Tenaga Kuli Project Tata Ruang :p
3. Announcer
4. Project Assistant *baru sekali doang ding... finally..

Four movies I could watch over and over:
1. Love Actually
2. Someone Like U
3. Serendipity
4. Everything with Tom Hanks in it..for sure..

Four places I have lived in:
1. Banda Aceh
2. Melbourne, OZ
3. Sardegna, Italia
4. Bandung
It's five so... Malang then...

Four TV shows I love or loved:
1. Oprah Winfrew Show
2. Friends
3. Ceriwis...yooo wis...
4. Party Of Five

Four places I have been on vacation:
1. Baliii... *not that good as people hyperbolic about huh....
2. Aceh..... it's a place for vacation now..
3. Rome....
4. Bandung.... lagi2 menjadi tempat liburan, akhirnya...

Four favorite dishes:
1. Le lasagne...
2. Martabak Aceh
3. Jajanan yg dipojokan Jalan Gajayana... *i don't know what it's called honestly...
4. Anything I eat as long as he's around... *haha, i can't even eat saking lezatnya...:p. That "he" gonna be a mysteri then...

Four websites I visit daily :
1. Friendster.com
2. My Blog... lately
3. kompas.com
4. situs-situs beasiswa

Four places I would rather be right now:
1. Home sweet home
2. Campo dei Fiori, Rome
3. Payung... *see stars and sparkling lights??
4. The place where my "trophy" stays...huhu...*khayal...

Four bloggers I'm tagging:
1. Endah *u'll respond, rite.. babe??
2. Tupang *loe kan pecinta gambar2 gwe di dunia maya punk..hahah. ayooo, teruskeun yak...
3. Bintang *lumayan bin... menghapus duka...
4. Rendi *suka tulis2 kan yah ren, daripada komen mulu...hehe...

The RiddLe...

2006-07-30T20:20:00.000+07:00

There are secrets that we still have left to find...

There have been mysteries from the beginning of time...

There are answers we're not wise enough to see...

We're looking for a clue...

There are reasons for the world...

I Love U Free... (^_^)

John Ondrasik emang dahsyat abis de... have no idea where the heck he got the inspiration becuz his lyrics are SUPER DUPER AWESOME!!!!!

I kinda love the last sentence :p. Bisa gitu mencintai orang secara bebas tanpa harus bingung feel dia gimana. Yasud... cinta aja gitu, bodo amat dia mau peduli apa engga...

To open up the secrets... the mysteries...to see the answers...

Be Love Free....

Empeeeettt.....

2006-07-28T16:09:00.000+07:00

How I realize.... life without kompie is soooo harddd!!! Especially when u have to face up the

deadlines....

How I realize.... being a procrastinator is that badddd!!! Makanyaaa atuh jeung...kalo ada tasks

kerjakeunlah secepatnyaaa... :(

How I realize.... don't CRY because it's pethatic...SMILE becuz it happened... bwt apa susahhh?? (^_^)

Jadinyalah sodara... i'm here becuz no radio at home (the-onlyone-lovable-given-radio... dipinjem binz bwt reportase), tv...males...bosennn...gosipnya cuma Adjie-tak-begitu-ganteng-Pangestu doang (tapi aku lagi concern sama berita israel KURANG AJEEAAARRRR yg tidak berperikemanusiaan, absolutely i'm not into politic conversation...but for the innocent people and all the destruct infrastructures there in Libanon and Palestine....Allah Bless them, amienn...), kompie...lagi di service gara2 monitornya kaga bisa idup (semoga bukan feedbacknya...yg kalo iya means i hafta buy new one.... horeeee...ganti flat ahhh :p).

Buku....outta stock!! Sebenernya ga juga siy... i'm reading 7 kinds of smart punya si Amstrong gitu de, lumayan ngisi2 pertanyaan disitu... tapi kenapa kayanya saya over di word smartnya (kecerdasan linguistik) aja yah??sementara yg laennya rada2 bloon... *harus diasah makanya nak...keep on reading my book-->kata yg nulis buku :p...

Seminggu ini....i just finished reading....
1. Beauty Case.... hweehhhh, awas loh yaa kalo ada yg ngeledek..."hari gini??baru baca chi??". Emang baru dapet pinjeman aja soalnya... sesuai dengan principle of ichi's-book-buying, don't buy chicklits honey...semua orang punya, why not just rent them??^_^...
Bukunya minjem Yogi... sempet yg kaget kok cowo bacanya Icha Rahmanti?? Secara dia juga baca Cintapuccino gitu loh..hehe.. Well, reading this book is just like reading my own story... main actress-nya apalagi, gwe bangeeuuudd de... pokonya menyadarkan saya yg tidak seberapa ini... and yeah, i'm not that pretty but i'm not that ugly also... eventho' saya juga punya "trophy" yg pengen banget dikejar... most-wanted-thing-in-life... tapi kayanya emang trophy itu uda berasa jauh, dia juga uda ga pengen dikejar tampaknya...i'm so left behind..hehe... mungkin juga ini tiba2 jadi ambisi (or is it love actually??) just becuz i realized he is that perfect to be with someday... umhhh....

2. The Zahir.... KEREN ABIS!!! Tipikelnya si Paulo Coelho-kuw tercinta dee... sarat makna hidup and so inspiring. Keknya buku ini isi hatinya seorang Coelho banget dan benar sekali de kalo mau mencintai seseorang itu harus tulus...bener2 harus ngalahin ego... u need to love yourself first, to be confort of yourself...before u share it with anybody else... and me?? i'm not ready i think....saya masih jualan ikan...hehe...i am still that SELFISH!! Masih on the training to be a better person saja lah before it is time to love and to be loved.... and i'll be ready...*semoga dengan "trophy" idaman itu...^_^

3. Saman-nya Ayu Utami... maap yak klo ada yg mau menghina lagi.. ini juga ga sengaja gitu belinya. I was in the bookstore, nemenin temen nyari buku lobster...yg lagi getol2nya ternak hewan itu. Just suddenly my impulsive-buyer-thing come out dan ga enak kalo ga bawa pulang buku baru...:p, jadinyalah begitu. But this book is extraordinary de...terutama comparing sama penulis indo cewe lainnya... well, at least i think so de. I mean, i kinda like the way she writes daripada Fira Basuki, Djenar Maesa dll... but i'm not judging yah, since this is the only book of Ayu Utami that I read.. ( i'm ready with Larung right now though). Lagian tiap penulis kan bisa suka2 dia, all about style

and character bukan?? Tapi Ayu Utami banyak mesumnya.... *oo, pantes suka...:p

Udah...segitu doang, kalo mw baca buku seminggu lebih dari tiga.... i give up de..:p. Ku Tak Sangguuuppp...

Btw, kan liburan juga niy... i kinda have some spare time de, senangnyaa... walopun kadang emang yg harus lemburan, tapi ogni tanto de.. and i kinda have some new friends de bwt jalan2... just knew, but interesting friendship we got

over here...:p

Trus, another thing is I'M CLEANING MY HOUSE!!haha...ini surprise de bwt nyokap yg siang2 aku sms after the cleaning... i mean, bener2 beres2 yg ga cuma kamar doang gitu loh.
"Selamat...selamat... anak anda akhirnya beberes rumah... PS:Aku mencintaimu mam..."
and she called me right away...
"hah, kamu beres2 apa??alhamdulillah"... ya ampriittt, segitunya yak saking langkanya saya membersihkan rumah...hahah... tapi emang yg pas nyokap dateng 3 bulan lalu tu rumah emang kapal titanic dan beliow ga tau aja kalo seorang ichi mah sebenernya rajin2 aja tuh...:p. Kan lagi hectic atuh buuu...

Yasudlah, mau makan2 sama Nanda niy.... then heading to Soe-Hatta d5 lt.2 untuk Open Your Mind... guys, yg punya acara ato mw promosi profile institusi, whatever...Makobu ngasih gratis talkshow loh di Open Your Mind ini..... so, what r u waiting for?? *hahah, adlips gwe niy...

Take Care All...
Connect soon...........

Manusia Bodoh...:p

2006-07-23T19:46:00.000+07:00

Nulis lagihhh....

Terpancing nih gw sama blog-nya temen. Katanya... uda basi banget kalo bahasa cowo yang kayaknya emang udah banyak korbannya ini nih...... gini, “Apa sih yang bisa gw kasih ke elo??”... hueksss, the truth is gw juga pengen muntah kalo ada yang ngomong kayak gitu... LAGI... Udah lah... minta dibilang??? Kalo uda ga niat “ngasih” ga usah pake nanya lah... tapi kadang emang perempuan tu suka bego aja, uda dibilangin begituan tetep aja ga ngeh. Saking cinta sudah melekat kali yah?? ^_^

Like this afternoon juga, salah satu temen deket gwe baru aja putus...dan jadilah dia cerita panjang lebar tentang berita buruk itu. Well, what i'm sick of is all about the reason of that stupid guy... SAMA AJA SODARA!!! Basi abis...cupu lah klo ad cowo yg ngajak putus pke embel2.... "I still love u so much...kamu tau kan ini berat buat aku..kamu tuh sabar banget, aku ga bisa bales...bla...blahhh...", eeeehhh...tapi putus.... maksudnya apa siy?? ga penting de... to the point aja ga bisa apa?? mau meninggalkan kesan baik?? Gosh...please just be honest, babe.....

Tapi emang berhasil tuh caranya cowo2 dengan sok2 gentle gitu, cewe2 jadi punya kesan baik dan efeknya yg jelek nih...jadi susah ngelupainnya. Secara... dia bilang juga masih sayang kok, bearti kan masalahnya cuma gara2 dia ga bisa lebih care aja toh?? dan biasanya cewe2 yg memang berpikir pake hatinya akan lebih rela... ujung2nya ngajak balik... Huhuh, wanita...wanita... bodoh sekali yah kita.

Eiy wanita... saat2 baru putus emang desperate abis dan all in mind kita adalah ingin segera ngajak balik, ya kan?? (kecuali klo putusnya beneran cewenya yg jahat niy...). But believe it or not... itu cuma karna kita belom adaptasi sama status jomblo doang kok. Karna ga kebiasa lagi aja sendirian... it all will past kok, ada yg cuma seminggu... 3 bulan... 1 tahun.... or even more, yg pasti emang ga bisa lupa siy...secara pernah deket dan emang punya kenangan gitu yah. What's important is that don't turn your whole life so blue....

Jadi buat cewe-cewe nih... just a little warning kalo uda diomongin kata-kata yang tampak lagi nge-gombal tapi sebenernya dalem banget itu... They really ask for a break-up!!!

ORANG GILA, CINTA dan KESADARAN SEKSUAL

2006-07-23T19:37:00.000+07:00

Hey..hey…long time no write. I’ve been busy with SPK (Studio Perencanaan Kota-kuw tercwintah itu loohh), and we had our presentation last Monday and Tuesday. It went great… (great only for my team actually) kinda bit weird soalnya dosen2 killer pembantai presentasi macemnya bu Ismu dan bu Septi ga komen yg sadis2. No idea why the heck they became moderately so tame when we had ours…huhu, senangnya!! Tapi emang untuk Laporan Rencana kemaren, kelompok kita yang asistensi terus kok… and I say, “that’s all about the hard works”… yaa, Maybe becuz timingnya juga tepat.. pas lagi orang kelaperan dan mw dhuhur-an, jadi pada pengen cepet2 selesey… ato karna kita emang tampangnya lucu2 serta jampe-jampe gwe yang selalu berhasil..hwahaha… But..but… still lotsa things to do. Laporan Rencana hasil revisian uda mulai harus di-asistensi lagi untuk final reportnya. One thing funny dari kelakuan orang2 adalah… anak2 jadi ikut2an nyelain kelompoknya kita gitu… yah, sebenernya ga penting juga sih karna emang mau ga mau kebawa rasa benci anak2 ke bu septi (bu septi adalah asisten kita gitu loh…) yang sukses jadi pembantai utama presentasi kemaren. Yang bilang kita dibelain bu septi lah… huh, biarkanlah.

Btw, I’m reading Paulo Coelho again… uda cinta niy!! It’s “Veronika decides to die”.. Sebenernya buku ini bahas tentang orang gila gitu de, macem2 orang gila yang biasanya dianggap ga normal sama orang2 seperti kita (saya maksudnya..) hanya karna mereka berbeda dari orang laen. Kalo biasanya kita makan nasi dan ada orang yang makan rumput..we gonna say they’re crazy, rite?? Dulu juga ada Einstein yang dibilangin orang gila waktu dia bilang bahwa ga ada waktu atau ruang, yang ada cuma kombinasi dari keduanya. Atau Columbus yang keukeuh bilangin ada benua di sisi lain dunia, bukannya jurang. Trus Galileo Galilei yang mulai buktiin kalo gereja Katolik salah tafsir bahwa bumi bukan pusat tata surya. Ato malah the Beatles, yang waktu itu nyiptain musik beda dari trend jamannya… Mungkin juga mereka contoh orang-orang gila yang hebat kali yah.. but still, insane persons just got into their own world…no matter how stupid they seem, skizofren, psikopat, maniak…they are still human (but they are crazy…hehe…). Teteupp de, walopun mulai sekarang aku akan lebih bisa menghargai orang2 gila… tapi ada klasifikasinya orang gila hebat sama yang annoying… and that’s why people invented mental hospital.

Anyway, There’s two problems I interested in from this book (and I guess so does everybody): Cinta dan Kesadaran Seksual. Ngaku de pasti kalo uda atas nama sayang ato cinta..whatever about the L word, we actually wanna give everything and obviously need both the contacts… physically and emotionally. Right?? Physically would be things like kissing, hugging, yah… u know lah already. Emotionally pastinjahh tentang perasaan itu sendiri. Makanya ada yg pacaran jiwa dan raga dan ada yang jiwa doang (raganya engga). Yang jiwanya doang mah biasanya à ternyata tidak memuaskan… hehe.. (one of many reasons why my relationship never lasts more than 10 months…I guess :p)

Well, this things I write are subjectively came from my own thought. Yang pasti Cinta dan Kesadaran Seksual berkaitan banget. Pinter2nya kita aja mw dibawa nafsu ato dikontrol, iya bukan?? (Biasanya siy cewe yg cenderung bisa ngontrol… kalo cowo2 disodorin mah langsung hayukkk…). Whatever… the most important thing is apapun bentuk nafsu itu harus dilakukan dengan sadar. Kalo ga namanya perkosa dunk?? Pacar ga pacaran, kawin ga kawin… paling penting lagi tau konsekuensinya… tiap orang punya own choices toh??

I read a very sweet messages in a blog…

I believe that there are things greater than love in the forte of relationship
One of them is RESPECT
Respect our companion
But more importantly, respect yourself as the carrier of consequences in choices
Thus, it leads you to the responsibility itself

Yaahh, kalo in my opinion siy respect itu termasuk bisa menghargai kalo semuanya punya porsi masing2. Porsi paling full dan komplit adalah pas uda nikah entar… karna tanggung jawab itu susah loh. Coba kalo iya sama orang itu… kalo engga?? So, Save the Best for Last!! ^_^

Sat-Nite....

2006-06-03T20:02:00.000+07:00

Malem Mingguuuuwwww......

Well, ordinary malem minggu saya bgt niy...

17.00 : Pastinya ngusahain uda pulang ke rumah dari whatever activities.

17.10 : Get bath...

Lehe...lehe.... menanti sms, siapa tau ngajak pergi abis siaran...huhu....unfortunately inbox saya dua minggu ini adalah dari Dina ato ga Anshor...ngajak ngelembur SPK ato orderan nyiapin peta arcview-nya SIP kita tercwintah. Atowww....atoww... kalo tadi sore mah dapet sms dari bos project yg lagi dikerjain sekarang ini --> "Gimana kabar Lapda-nya RTRW Lamongan ichi?? Mudah2an senin bisa jd draftnya yah". Beres lah pakkk..... (yee, mw jawab apa lagi coba??)

17.30 : Solat magrib

Baca-baca... nyiap2in tugas.... cihuy banget yah jadi mahasiswa. Padahal mah gosip sama Devi...hosmet yg biasanya selalu ingetin buat ngaji bareng.... baiknyaaa anak ituh... kalo malem ini, kan ada si Dyan tuh yg bisa diajak ngelendotan...hihi... dia kan hobinya cium ketek....^_^

18.30 : Uda di makobu dunkdunk...

Makobu biasanya sepi malem minggu gini...org2 pasti uda punya party-invitation semua kaliiii, kecuali yg akan siaran malem seperti Wawingsky dan Koko-LeeSay...hehe. Yang masih siaran pastinya adalah Binsky dan Tupski --> which is for sure didoyanin sama anak2 indie se Malang. Bin seperti biasa akan nyubit2 pipikuw dulu, gigit2 tangan dan cium2 jauh.... kurang kasih sayang kali yak si bin ampe musti ngelampiasin ke gw....:p.

19.00 : Dan pergilah orang2 itu... tinggal gw yg akan siaran dan pak Ipul yg jaga diluar. Kalo jamannya ada mas Arip dia doyan juga ngenet donlot lagu2 baru di makobu. Skrg, gw aja niy YM-an kalo lagi ga males bales2 msg... ato FS-an... dan blogging dunkdunk...kalo lagi pengen.

20.00 : Tetepp...kegiatan yg sama. On The Airrr....... kalo pewe, gw pasti akan dengerin lagu doang tanpa YM-an dan internetan dunkdunk.... Fave SOng For a While --> Corrine Bailey Rae... Put Your Records On Babyyyyyy.... males2 gimana gitu ya suaranya Corrine teh. Model2nya si Macy Gray campur Alanis....hehe....

20.30 : Ihiy...malem ini beneran ga ngomong banyak de. Live report dimana-mana.... mba Ame di Balai AGung Majapahit ngeliput Syaharani trus si Tupski juga minta on-air terus dari Amsterdam Resto... huhu, nasib saya memang tidak beruntung yakkk, ngerak niy di studio.... ampuuuunnn ddjjjjjj....

20.45 : Puterin slot iklan terakhir dan membiarkan tiga lagu terakhir.....hwahaha....pemalesan!!! Malem ini juga gw sms-an terus.... jadi ga berasa juga. Tadi kan abis bantuin seleksi AFS tahap 2, jadinya ada Dirga dateng dari Surabaya trus si Safri yg emang doyan senam jari gara2 kita kan pke XL gitu loh.... doyan de GRETONGAN!!! Dua2nya niy anak Makasar.... dan ujug2 kenal Bin (yg juga anak Makasar) dan Viko (anak Sipil yg basketan, Makasar juga dan tidak saya kenal....tapi sering melihat). Ya udin dee.... Tadinya mw rame2 sama Michan nemenin Dirga liat Malang, kan lagi rame anak band Indie depan makobu sini. Tapi ga jadi tuuhhh... pada cape kayanya orang2....tapi masa dia bilangnya gara2 banyak bencong..hih.... inpo dari mana coba??

21.00 : Off The Air....Babeeee....... malem ini tumben si Koko ga siaran Center Stage, mba EVie yg ganti. Seneng ihhhh liat mba Eviieee...cantikkkk dan baiikkkk!!!Huhu...anda2 kalo doyan, dia sudah punya pacar sodara... hehe, ini mah aslinya buat Pandu yg doyan sama mba Evie...dasar Odipus Complex....

21.10 : Udin de... cape juga niy after all. Dari pagi uda AFS-an, baju juga belom ganti2...hiyyy, untung saya sudah mandi dunkdunk. Yang ga biasa hari ini cuma karna bolos kul tamu-nya Kapsel doang (yg ga mungkin disesalin pastinjaahhh) dan aku akhirnya dapet sms berisi...."Ichi..." lagi..... ^_^

Yasud, mari menutup hari..... Buonanotte gente....

Nice week-end juga yah......

2006-05-24T08:38:00.000+07:00

Why oh why.... i DO feel disappointed everytime I see movies adapted from novels. The more amazing the novel, the worst is the movie.... huh, KECEWA deeee!! Too much expectation, prolly??? Uhmm... bukannya emang mereka harus bikin film bagus untuk novel yg emang bagus ituh??

I wrote about GIE before... berulang lagi pas nonton MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA, lagi-lagi...terakhir THE DA VINCI CODE. Belom ada film based on book yg sehebat Godfather dan Alpacinonya. Paling ga, ada film keren macemnya trilogi Lord of The Ring yg ga banting2 amat sama novelnya. Emang ga mungkin menterjemahkan buku yang bisa jadi sampe ratusan halaman ke dalam film berdurasi paling lama hanya 3 jam. Walopun katanya film punya kelebihan bisa ngeliatin secara visual, tapi sepertinya... I enjoy more to visualize the story described from the book. Kecuali untuk pemandangan London dan Paris dengan Louvre-nya yg sangat indah itu...

Famed symbologist Professor Robert Langdon is called to the Louvre museum one night where a curator has been murdered, leaving behind a mysterious trail of symbols and clues. With his own survival at stake, Langdon, aided by the police cryptologist Sophie Neveu, unveils a series of stunning secrets hidden in the works of Leonardo Da Vinci, all leading to a covert society dedicated to guarding an ancient secret that has remained hidden for 2000 years. The pair set off on a thrilling quest through Paris, London and Scotland, collecting clues as they desperately attempt to crack the code and reveal secrets that will shake the very foundations of mankind.

Nonton The Da Vinci Code minggu kemaren... JAUHHHH dari harapan bangeeedd. Mana kali ini saya uda yakin kalo Tom Hanks bener2 cihuy untuk perannya Robert Langdon. Di bukunya kan si Langdon ama Sophie Neveu keknya yang berjuang extra hard gituh untuk nge-crack code-nya. Tapi...tapi...kok di film keknya gampang sekali yahh?? Kayak yg bukan ahli simbol aja jadinya si Langdon.

Adegan yg kepotong... itu dia, dari awal aja uda beda....

1. Langdon ditemuin sama pesuruhnya Bezu Fache pas dia lagi launching buku the Sacre Feminine, padahal book versionnya adalah Langdon lagi tidur di kamar hotelnya.

2. Harusnya pas menuju ke swiss bank, Sophie ama Robert harus nyetir rada2 jauh dari kota... tapi keknya kok didalem kota yah settingnya waktu itu??

3. Pas nyari2 lokasi untuk nge-crack code terakhir dari kotak holy grail itu... versi bukunya adalah mereka harus mati2an nyari di perpus untuk akhirnya nemuin makam si Isaac Newton. Emang siy sempet yg usaha cari pake keywords di kompie perpus itu, tapi ga cuma minjem hape-nya org di dalem bis dan lgsg terpikirkan kayak di film... huhu...CUPU banget siy skenarionya???

Penyederhanaan untuk mempersingkat film?? I thought they made big project also for this one but Ron Howard didn't make it this time... Padahal saya ngefans abis sama hasil teamwork Ron Howard sama Tom Hanks di The Polar Express.. Anyway, i don't mean to say that this movie is that bad. Entertaining enough lah walopun subtitle-nya kurang jelas. Bintang yg belum baca bukunya seems interested enough kok. Dia yg terpesona betapa pinternya orang yg membuat cerita ini... yeah, Dan Brown is SUPER AWESOME!!!

I talked with mas Iwan yesterday and we thought... "yah, keknya kita nonton filmnya aja dulu baru baca bukunya yak...", hehe... kinda weird thought becuz u'll never know it'll come up in a movie or not, rite??

aLoNg aPRiL...

2006-04-30T20:39:00.000+07:00

Ulang taun uda lewat… I spent a week at Probolinggo. Gile yah, tu kota ngga ada yang lebih panas lagi. Ampe skrg niy, uda pulang ampir sebulan juga msh tetep gosong. Kleeenngg that!!!
Anyway, as I could’ve guess.. no tones from any fam-member except Alif called me as the last person. Right in the middle of April 6th..dia dan kedua temen gilanya ituh.. Bimo+Viki, nyanyi2 acapella. That was sweet tho’!! Wohoho, dia pengen jd yg terakhir apa lupa yak sebenernya?? Well, wishes tidak lagi penting kok sebenernya.

Some of the things I loved most about April…2006:
- Touring in Probolinggo…huhuhu, tapi ga bohong de. Kapan lagi coba bisa keluar2 dari Malang gini?? Coming up… Lamongan dan Surabaya buat PKL-an. Hayyaahhh…kotanya ngga ada yg gaul ginih??

- Doing the SPK (Studio Perencanaan Kota).. especially the talking with Anshor+Dina. Kalo ini mah, sambil berusaha menganalisis pola pemanfaatan ruang, gosip Mayangsari ama BTH juga jalan…:p

- Laughing with my best friend Aan…

- Going to Rainier’s shop… yahooo, thank’s God de body spray yg kemaren uda abis. Jadi bisa beli2 lagi disini… and I kinda like the smell of cytrus right now. Saking cintanya aku sama bau ini skrg jd doyan nyium2in ketek sendiri…hehe. So… gud bye to that mild-smell kinda thing…

- Seing the concert of TRISUM and loving TOHPATI’s performance.

- Hanging out and deepening my relationship with my closest friends. Satu hal yg aku rada2 sebel sama temen2 deket disini adalah mereka susah bgt buat diajak karOKEan, yah..meskipun ntar bakalan jadi karANCURan. Nyanyi2 cuma buat fun toh???Tapi suka susaaaaahhhh ngajaknyaaa…

- Re-reading To Kill a Mocking Bird… secara novelnya ini rada susah bahasanya. Jadi skrg aku bikin program stabilolisasi untuk hard vocabs dan lumayan kalo nulis curhatan pake basa inggris jd seneng bacanya banyak vocab baru…:p

- Talking on the phone with my nephew… good to hear that he missed me. Cuma gara2 dia baru dimarahin nyokapnya… haha…

- Receiving lotsa surprises as April gifts… Definitely touched by that in the middle of the night awakening to see a watermelon with 21 fireworks on it…(sumpah, itu idenya lucu banget. Bisa gitu inget kalo aku lagi ngidem semangka). Then a t-shirt with my face sticking on it…wohoho, tau bgt niy klo yg dikasih narsis abeesss. A bouquet of flowers from anonym… aslinya ga doyan2 bgt sama bunga (kecuali kalo ngasihnya pake pot gituh), but this is the first flower gift loh… jadi seneng juga walopun ga tau dari siapa. And I was busy looking after a vas, tapi apa boleh baut de… by now bunganya yg tadi pinky jadi berwarna ungu… trus aku koleksi mug de skrg, dr yg warnanya kosmonita ampe merchandise british council ada tu dirumah. Kalo minum ampe kenyang…

- The song SO SICKnya Ne Yo… I’m singing this all the time de. Saing2an sama dangdutannya Mulan di Sedang Ingin Bercinta-nya Dewa…

- Ngeliput LA Lights Streetball dengan the-affascinating-PAUL tercinta as the MC… I am flattered really… dan melihat gaya dia yg sumpah asik beuuttt, dan ternyata setelah aku pikir2 suaranya mirip bgt sama orang yg gantengnya juga sama kayak dia…hohoho…apa sih chi?? Kecuali basa inggrisnya si Paul mah level Eminem, kalo masuk EF uda lulus kali…hehe. Wah..wah..PAUL..PAUL..Best MC of all time de tu orang. Believe it or not, this my first knee-shaking ngeliatin cowo…hahaha… too bad he’s officially married gituw yaaa. Ato seengganya kata Wawing dia pasti uda pernah kawin…hehe…

- Serving each day, by supporting or comforting or offering some form of love. But I know I can be an ass-hole and sometimes (without realizing it), I’m offering that form too much so that suddenly when things go “messy”… I’ve washed my hands clean of this. Ooo yeah, I think I should overlooked this supposed crime..

- Unforgettable on-air experience... siaran di Cikarnya Makobu pas Malang Kembali. I swear it was awesome...

- Paling penting --> Simplifying my life by getting rid of 'stuff’.

SiTTiNg, WisHiNg, WaiTiNg

2006-03-30T15:40:00.000+07:00

Kalo denger lagu itu, Sitting, Wishing, Waiting -Jack Johnson-... iya bener, asik banget... tapi bego bgt juga ga sih??? Kemaren pas siaran sempet yg ngebahas dikit, dan ada Cuwie yg ngesms bilang, "chi, kalo cuma duduk, ngarep dan nunggu kapan majunya coba?? ga meaning bgt wishingnya..." Yaaa, i think Cuwie is right!!! But sometimes u just could do those things when (u think) the hope is lost... and is that stupid???

Btw, just wanna write something before the survey season coming. I’ll be away for a week to Probolinggo…huhu, prolly I would hate spending my bzday in that town. Mana saya kan pake flexy gitu yah… absolutely there will be no tone ringing for messages or phone calls from mom, dad, sisters or my bro… telling me my own wishes list and hoping so much I could reach all of that. But, let’s hope I’ll be okay. Hihihi…ngarep banget sih yah???

I always feel April 5th is special… Taun kemaren, semua orang memilih untuk ngasih buku. I don’t know… was it written on my forehead??? Tapi emang biasanya deket2 ultah gini, kalo lagi ngobrol2… suka digembar-gemborin… “iihh, pengen buku ini nih.. resensinya bagus”.. huhu, pasti ntar dibeliin de.*tips nih buat yg mau ultah dan ngarep… ^_^

One thing funny is I got this book which I’ve already owned, and this person was special actually. Sedikit mubazir kalo punya dua…so, I give the old one to a special person too. Well, special persons don’t always come up.. and we lost them sometimes, maybe to have another special one.. *let’s hope again!!

I think my time has come to another changes…
Tho’ I need to see my past… where I belong

Something inside me is breaking

Something inside says there's somewhere better than this...

Sunset sailing on April skies

Bloodshot fire clouds in my eyes

I can't say what I might believe

But if God made you he's in love with me… *loh???
(ini lagunya Five For Fighting loh…)

Do wishes count at all… Amien…

HE’ll gimmi a sign.. HE’ll gimmi anything I won’t tell a soul
HE’ll hold me when I sleep…

Tapi kok susah yah?? Biasanya manusia (saya) baru mencari-NYA when the tide is high…

Wish me faith in every moments though it seems stupid and foolish to have it..
Wish me moments of blissful solitude and yummy community and self intimacy in doses that feel best

April always gives me spirits. Count the days… April 5th will be coming soon!!! Yooohooo… and by the way, Happy Bzday for all April people out there. What I wish for my self is what I wish for you too.

PS: Eh, bukunya Umberto Eco yg The Name of the Rose kok mahal banget yah??:p… *let’s hope again!!

MiSSiNg...

2006-03-25T12:54:00.000+07:00

Huaaa…kangen berat!!! Padahal mama baru aja berkunjung ke sini, tapi secara cuma bentar… karna emang nyampe sabtu pagi dan langsung pulang lagi minggu pagi, huhuhu… kangennya malah makin berasa. The seconds after mom departure was a suffering periods, hiks… (The suffering – Coheed and Cambria). Padahal uda sering aja ditinggalin, but I have no reason why de heck I always feel sooo left-out whenever I have to face this departure-situation. Sopratutto con le persone speciale, like mom.. famz, gud friends… ( Where’d U Go – Fort Minor). Kayaknya lebih lega aja kalo MENINGGALKAN… daripada DITINGGALKAN (katanya ini ciri-ciri orang egosentris…iya gituh??).

Where’d u go…

I miss u so…

Since like it has been forever…

That u’ve been gone…

(ganti… Since u’ve been gone – Kelly Clarkson)

Kalo lagi ngerasa gini nih… I just wish to take the first flight home and be with them right away (I Will Fly – Ten2Five), dan ntar kan saya yg ninggalin… jadi ga terlalu kangen, hehe… would it be a perfect situation?? (Perfect Situation – Weezer).

Btw, walopun cuma semalem… mama berhasil diajak gosip ampe malem, hwehehe. One of the news… Dyan uda kurus, adekkuww tercwintah itu kan tadinya 60 kg. Nah, sekarang dia less-weight sebanyak 8 kg saja yaaahhh… mata gw langsung terbelalak, karna itu bearti beratnya cuma 52 kilo. Itu kan beberapa kilo aja sama body-mass saya sekarang??? Dan sodara2… tinggi saya cuma 159 gituh dan Dyan 170. But the lesson is… walopun sedih2 ditinggal mama, pagi itu sebelom siaran… jam 5 pagi saya uda mulai joging lagi keliling Ijen. Terinspirasi… (^_^)

Trus.. trus… siangan, sempet yg jalan2 nemenin mama dan kita ke Matos. Jadilah, kita ngeliat baju anak2 tiga biji. Pilihannya… Spiderman, Power Rangers dan Superman. Secara pengen ngasih oleh-oleh ke ponakan, jadi aja berenti disitu. Mama bilangnya dia suka Power Rangers… huhu, naakkkk… rendah sekali seleramuw!!! Jadinya kita beliin Superman, biar ga norak2 amat… masa lawan musuh rame2 sih?? Kan lebih jago kalo sendirian…^_^ --> tidak mengajarkan kebersamaan!!! Aslinya sih karna warnanya Power Rangers bulek gitu dan bahannya ga nyerep keringet…

Ini Ariel… yg kiri adalah dia kalo antinya (baca: auntie, huhu…sok bule tuh si Dyan) lagi gila. Tapi foto ini adalah penghibur hati kalo lg stress, pasti lgsg ngakak2 de… sama Bintang tuh, dia juga doyan sama foto ini. Teyusss..yg kanan, Ariel sama uminya… kakakkuuwww cinta, Mela.

DaRK....or WHaT???

2006-03-10T20:08:00.000+07:00

Huhu.... keknya yg banyak gitu ngomenin kenapa templatenya jadi gelap begini. Baru aja... mas Arief (sebelah gw ini nihh sekarang..) ngomel lagi, "Chi, itu bekgron gelap gitu nape?? Cewe kan biasanya suka warna biru...ato pink gituh. Ganti Chi, kesannya ga enak...".

Well, iyakah?? Is Black look that bad??? Honestly, i don't feel that bad these days. All are okay, eventho' things don't always seem that good also. Tapi bener2 balance loh... Days ago (approximately these past 15 days lah..), saya dapet income lumayan lah. Gaji siaran 2 bulan (karna sengaja ga ngambil bulan lalu) trus ceperan ngemsi Creativity Weeknya British Council

--> intinya... lumayan. Tapi... tapi...sodara2, maksudnya kan mw nabung dikit2 buat beli hape yg ilang tuh trus ama printer saya dirumah yg kalo dibenerin lebih mahal daripada beli baru. Yasudlah... ditambah mama emang msh aja jd supporting system paling ouwkeih..^_^ Ugghhh... ternyata nambah aja lagi list barang2 ilang, selaen hape K500i-kuw tercwintah itu... kemaren flash disk-kuw juga ikutan kecolongan di warnet (aslinya sih kelupaan..), trus belom little things seperti celana jeans 2 biji gara-gara ngejemurnya malem2 trus diambil maling gebleg.. plus kemeja baru...huhu.......apesssss!!! Yah, begitu de... akhirnya it seems like penerimaan bakalan selalu diikuti dengan pengeluaran. Kalo ibaratnya pemerintah... kalo subsidi pendidikan dibanyakin, subsidi BBM yg diturunin. Biar balance... huhuhuhu........ I hate this balancing stuff kalo menimpanya ga enak ginih. Baydeweiy... mungkin ini juga ngingetin kalo selama ini kurang beramal kali yaaahhh........

Eniwey, I read some stuff about black-colour... dan yg keluar ini nih.....

The meanings for the color black and the feelings it evokes:

Death, Morbid, Dramatic, Elegant, Intimidating, Fright, Uncertainty, Aloof, Powerful, Stunning, Fatigue, Wordly, Mystery, Sophisticated, Cold, Slimming, Solid, Finality, Enclosing, Bereavement, Dark.

Tuh...ga selalu identically misterious kan yah, karna emang HITAM ternyata powerful enough untuk menghapus warna2 laennya. Tapi whatever things about black..... it's not my fave colour anyway, I'm just in the mood with all black-stuff these days. Mungkin juga karna nonton Hotel Rwanda and touched by it... Negros... mungkin juga karna lagi pengen dibilang intimidating....huhuhu...... mungkin juga karna kalo pke baju item jadi keliatan langsing, maybe just becuz I believe the old Irish traditional song....

Black is the colour of my tur love's hair.... hehehe...... which mean dapat dipastikan i want a husband with sexy black hair.... :D His face is like some rosy fair, The prettiest face and the neatest hands.......apa sih???? ngayal sayaahahahahaha.......

Gud Nite.... connect soon...

BiNtaNg + iCHi...

2006-03-01T21:05:00.000+07:00

BiaR aDa FoToNyaaa.....^_^

2006-02-27T20:58:00.000+07:00

Huhu… it has been quiet a long time since my last post. All are okay, kuliah udah mulei Senin kemaren and uh well… unfortunately I haven’t done the KRS-KHS stuff gituh. Biasa de, manajemen perkuliahan yg sok-sok nyuruh tepat waktu…eeehh, dosennya sendiri ngeluarin nilai telat gini. But I have plan already!! Ada dua matkul yg bakalan diulang… which is Pengantar Transport-kuw tercinta dan Ekonomi Wilayah dan Kota (ewekaa… hueksss…). Let’s see then apakah gw akan berhasil semester ini, mengingat semester yg kemaren ga ada A-nya sama sekali gini… Well..well, I have special issue about this “nilai” stuff, so prolly I just skip writing this one out.

Nothing great to report actually, I’m still doing the same old things… kerjaan di radio, kerjaan di buletin, kerjaan di the-I-almost-got-bored-project, kerjaan dalam rangka mewujudkan program kerja himpunan… yeah, those stuff!! Apart from that, I did feel the confortness of my holiday… I’m not lazy tho’, I just enjoy doing nothing…^_^ soooo much!!!

Kemaren2 juga yg rajin lari pagi gitu, pasti tiap dua kali seminggu dan emang bener tuh kata mba Atli kalo lingker pinggang jadi lebih kecil. Tapi sodara2…. Perut kuw kaga kecil2, beneran de.. kata Endah siy musti tetep sit-up gitu kalo mw ngecilin perut. Iya kali yaaa…
Okay...here's an issue...... a lot of people thinking that they're fat, becuz there’s a “bulge” of what we girls usually think is fat on our lower stomach...hihi....personal experience banget ga siy?? Well, the different is.... i'm more into girls cathegory who isn't that skinny-freak who always wanted to be like a skeleton. Jadinya… teteup wae makan terus!! Sampe house-mate saya, si Devi tuh yg getol banget ampe mengkonsumsi WRP diet segala… gagal usaha pengurusannya. Kebeneran juga kemaren2 saya dapet pasokan coklat gratis banyak… makin de diet-program failed.
Tapi emang cewe Indonesia kecil-kecil ihh… (apa saya bukan org Indonesia yaaak??), dulu waktu ikutan AFS… my weight was over 50 and people around me claimed nothing except that I looked healthy. Mungkin healthy ada tanda petiknya kaliii… “healthy”, ato kata Aan à chubby!! Yaahh, seems like I hafta do some jogging again… uda ngabsen seminggu soalnya niy. Rada males juga startnya, abis temen lari pagi yg biasanya uda kabur demi masa depan… ^_^. (Gud luck bro’…)

Owiyah, finally I got To Kill a Mockingbird-nya Harper Lee from a friend. Belom abis2 juga ampe sekarang, but so far… like-it-a-lot book. I read The Five People U Meet in Heaven… ga sebagus bukunya Mitch Albom yang Tuesday With Morrie siy, but if I might say… the book tells us how to look at life in a productive optimistic way. That actually your life could inrich others. Without realizing it, everyday u contribute to other people’s lives in so many ways… even if it’s just little things. U took up some time of every person u spoke and u just don’t realize u have affected them. Every teacher u had, friends, family… u affect everyone who is around u, even those people who aren’t closely related to you. Everything builds up to something… including us and that what makes our life so special. Another thing is that u would only find the real truth in the future-life (setelah mati??) and prolly that’s one of the reason why we should never leave this Earth on a bad note… u never know what it will cost you… Hell or Heaven??? Uhuhu… serem gw ngomong mati niy.

I don’t know how many people I have affected in their life… and I’ll never know. Yup.. we’ll never know!! But I do feel affected by a lot of people… my closest relatives, good friends, and even a person whom I met just once… or somebody that I don’t even know, prolly I wouldn’t even write this things if I wasn’t affected by Mitch Albom’s book…^_^

2006-01-28T18:40:00.000+07:00

Just a few days ago, saya dibanjirin pertanyaan Wawing yang bikin sedikit mikir sebenernya. Rada2 males mikir sekarang siy… secara juga ngga ada calon-calon yang musti dipilih….:p

“Ichi, considering you are a woman (well…I am), which would u choose… whatever the situation,

a. cowo yang caring, sayang, menyempatkan waktu, dsb… tapi belom bisa teges/mampu membuat keputusan secara “matang” alias duitnya ngorek2 sana-sini… terus-terusan…(hihiyy…kesian amat yak??)

b. cowo yang kuat secara finansial, tapi punya sedikit waktu but afford with anything u want…

Uh well…here we go….^_^

Cowo “matang” pasti penting dong… buat apa full perhatian tapi cuma makan CINTA doang?? Not at all about matrealistic-stuff, money isn’t everything… tapi hayooo de cewe-cewe… itu cukup penting juga kan??? Tapi perlu diinget mungkin ini lebih ke konteks relationship yang bener2 serius, bukan yang sekedar I love U, U love Me…We are happy family… halah, itu mah lagunya Barney jaman gw preppy dulu kaleee….^_^

What woman wants??

Uhmm…assurance = asuransi….pasti….hahaha, but most of all we want to be loved and feeling secure. Ga bisa aja kalo disuruh milih choice a ato b diatas, mengingat manusia selalu ingin sesuatu yang ideal walopun entarnya juga practically susyeeehhh. It’s bull-crap if women said that they don’t need money… they’re gonna be picky (aren’t we??). Cowonya ga musti tajir se-alaihum… yaahhh, relatif siy… to a certain type of girls, yeap… but let’s talk about woman in general. Personally, kalo saya sebenernya cuma pengen nyari aman aja… dalam artian financially secure untuk masa depan nanti… *halah, kayak yg uda mw nikah aja*. Bukannya pengen “hanya” bergantung sama orang itu, saya juga nanti Insya Allah akan bekerja kok… tapi ngapain wasting time kalo uda keliatan orangnya males dan ga bisa support keluarga secara materi… Tapi kalo tajir trus kelemer-klemer ga ada attention juga yaelah… males banget juga. Hihi… maunya apa sih?? Kalo ada joke tentang difference and similarities between a girl and a PC… well, hampir bener juga sih. Gee… we’re not that difficult too handle though…. Tapi kalo pake melet-melet cowo tajir sih engga kaliii….

Tajir… based on my personal dictionary pokoknya pinter dan mau/bisa kerja. Udah….itu de yang penting. Kalo tajir harta emak-babe nya saya juga rada males, mending kalo yang bisa manfaatin. Tapi model-modelnya cuma ngandelin “minta-minta”…bakalan ga jaminan juga. Itu mah anak SMP yang bangga2an kalo punya pacar mobilnya segupre-gupre… Bukannya sok-sok-an, tapi cowo yang naek angkot sekarang tapi keliatan bakalan punya jaguar di masa datang keliatan lebih sexy dee… yaa, ga jaguar2 amat lah…^_^

Kalo ngomongin soal assurance, yaa…. Saling yakin soal hubungan itu sendiri kali yah. I’m not an expert about this by the way… tapi dari point of view seorang perempuan, cewe ngga mau effort dateng dari dia sendiri… Loveà it takes two to tango, iya gampang buat cowo…. He can walk out free whenever they want, and again seperti yang sudah kita ketahui bersama cowo (yang menurut saya sebenernya tipe begini…. Actually he’s not that into YOU…) kadang takut ama komitmen. Gw mah… hadouwww… ke laut de tipe beginian. Kenapa not that into you??? Karna kalo cinta dan uda nemu sama “seseorang” itu… mereka pasti akan melakukan segalanya… bukan begitu???Oprah yang bilang loh… cewe juga gitu kok.

Yaahhh….tapi sepertinya the easiest part of all sebenernya cewe kalo uda feel loved, bakalan lebih gampang…ga punya duit juga. Hahaha… iya gituh?? Di dalem otak cewe, affection emang penting sepertinya… just make us feel secure and save…then we’ll fall. Sama aja kayak cowo kan yah… as we all know, affair terjadi kalo salah satu ato dua-duanya ngerasa insecure…

Tapiii…………. ngomongin “hati” mana ada teorinya sihhh??? It’s all about emotional feeling, right???

Umpphh… saya juga sampe sekarang belom bisa jadi orang seperti yang saya inginkan, ato yg org pengenin... But the whole point is….Smart man is SexY *sluuuRppp*… hahaha…. Karna dia pasti tau gimana cara untuk jadi cowo tidak pada pilihan a ato b… tapi untuk dipilih…. Reckon so!!!

2006-01-27T10:59:00.000+07:00

Happy note……

Just wanna share things I enjoyed these days…
Fictions run…. Music blast…. Joys of sleep….

Impressed so much with “Alchemist” by Paulo Coelho. Yeah… it’s not new.
Many people would classify this story as the best book ever written. It's hard to disagree…. The main character is about the boy who follow his dream. The story flows so simple and I couldn’t find any meaningless paragraph. If you haven't yet read this book, I STRONGLY encourage you to. There are SO MANY things you can learn and apply to every day life. It’s recommended everywhere, I guess…

“Memoirs of a geisha” is another nice book. I found it awesome becoz there are lotsa things I didn’t know before… Japanese tradition and a little touch of its history. Love those things…. The same feeling when I read “The Da Vinci Code”, except that probably I’d find more surprises in Dan Brown off course. I’m reading a collaboration novel by the indonesians blogger… PUING..death-stuff… By the way, I used to like Gibran at high school… but wooohhh….. tried re-reading Risalah Cinta and found it boring… ngga tau yaaa…. Maybe I’m on ALL-ABOUT-LOVE-BORED Syndrome…haha… Saya juga lagi penasaran sama “To Kill a Mocking Bird”nya Harper Lee, tapi nyari belom nemu…. Anyone??? Punyakah???

Into music…. Selain lagi suka sama lagu yang ngesoul kayak “Every little bit of Hurts”nya Alicia Keys (bukan liriknya loh yaaa… the piano and Keys’ amazing soul when she sings that falls me down), John Mayer Trio and John Legend for sure…
Saya juga cinta LETTO!!!! Kemaren pas sempet yg talkshow sama anak2 The Rain pun, saya teteupp nanyain anak2 Letto…hehe… yah, siapa tau kenal gituh kan sama Jogjanya. Began on a rainy night with a can’t sleep syndrome, saya ikutan quiz yg hadiahnya CD Letto… hehehe…ternyata dapet!! Got the album, listened to every songs…. Sampai mati, sampai mati is less interested but all of ‘em are super duper… U should try “Truth, Cry and Lie”…”I’ll Find A Way”.... ga punya??? Request yah di radio Makobu The Fresh Channel….hahaha…promosi de gw… Letto ini my-life-talk juga, beside Alanis tentunya… kebetulan mungkin, tapi iya juga. Letto ini kan basa Italinya bisa “tidur” (camera da letto = kamar tidur) dan bisa juga baca (ho letto = saya udah baca). Another coincidence kalo saya emang suka dua hal ini…. Tiduran sambil baca…hehe…. I wonder the band philosophy, why the heck they named it that way???

Uh well… tidur saya emang rada parah liburan ini. Tidur jam 11an tapi bangunnya bisa jam 9 pagi… huhu, pemalesan!! Abis solat… langsung selamat tidur kembali de. Abis lari pagi juga saya bisa terlelap di depan TV sambil nonton berita….. makanya sekarang kalo lari pagi suka yang jauh biar pulangnya uda bener2 siang dan ngga boleh tidur. Uhm….There is a time for many words, and there is also a time for a sleep. (^_^)

2006-01-26T08:56:00.000+07:00

My first blogg...don't wanna mess up a good writing with some crap stuff just about myself...so here i am, writing becuz have no idea whattado rite now...

Really wanna sleep to save my soul. I would really, really love to sleep. So, this middle of the night awakening can only promise evolution for my soul… if not bags under my eyes (like I always have). U know I really love to express myself, in any form. I don't think twice about sharing how I feel about something or how broken I was, but sometimes getting specific is terrifying. As always, I enjoy so much my dreaming time… wondering!! ^_^ And right now… I wonder how they (my friends??famz?? people..)looked over me… am I really like what they see?? How often do I withhold from people my true experience? (like well-socialized girl??hehe..)

And how to go about this other wonder?? I just would love to have somebody (not a boyfriend if u guess so..), maybe a true bestfriend I could have on this planet..who asks me lotsa questions we could both wondering, a person who touched me and loves our relationship and when I just could ask them outrightly without having a hard feeling. A feedback taking soul who would land me some reactionary stuff… U know what?? Sometimes I wonder… am I going the wrong way?? I find myself inspired to speak a little more authentically about my fear, or my dissappointment (yuckkkk..i've never liked to admit my dissappointment) or all those human not-so-proud of things, and it loosened me a gut…huhu…I don't have a gut actually…but I just know that there is a great challenge for myself brewing underneath those ponderings…

Anyway, thanks for reading….
-C-

2006-01-25T10:26:00.000+07:00

Hi all…

Just checking in as we approach official holiday time. Wishing you each the greatest of times with your family, friends or selves throughout this season.

This year starts in a weird way… don’t wanna be hopeless, but some unfortunate events are already written on my year’s first book. Last year was the same, u know… my life cycle (it’s still January..huhu), except that it’s becoming easier each year. Uhmm, maybe becuz I got used to it already.

Anyway, when I just take a few minutes to reflect and throw some personal goals out about the future… I get inspired by this happening… miss-decision making, cell-phone robbed, etc… yeah, I’ll be diving in and serve (not only for myself) the best. (^_^)

Okay… cukuplah sok bijaknya, ;p. Back to the holiday theme. Saya nganggur amat niy… bisa bangun siang, paling nunggu jam siaran trus beres2 rumah. Apart from it… saya emang jadi lebih rajin lari pagi dan rada jauhan gituh, pengen nyoba resep masakan enak, and I’m doing this orchid’s project… huhu… ga tau de berhasil apa engga. But it’s kinda fun tho’.. I find the clarity that leads to a great sense of peace and empowerment, haha… soalnya jadi mikirin banyak to-do-projects dalam rangka ngga nganggur. Read some books also, watch old-fave movies (Someone Like U… Love Actually… etc). Internally, even if I’m on my own… I feel surrounded by support and filled with gentleness and have some juicy time to enjoy on how awesome it is to be alive. Tentunya mencari kehidupan selain ngerjain tugas, merem-melek depan kompie, panas2an di jalan buat survey… before it is time to return again.

I have new friend coming in actually, and we talked a lot about journeys (adventures, books, life, projects, partners, anything...). Well, I don’t have any great gift to express… but I’ll offer a confortable friendship to support in your every journeys ^_^.

Anche se avevo l’esperienza con una gran schiffezza a farmi un casino quest’anno…. Hihiihihihi…… Great people are still involved in my support system…

Connect soon...

-c-

2006-01-25T10:19:00.000+07:00

Had lovely conversations with some good friends which confort me a bit. The discussion was a lot about the merely fact that I actually am lying to myself… really wanna speak my truth, but u know sometimes u just couldn’t tell and all u wanna have is some empty spaces and silences.

I spend myself reading good books these days, especially when I really don’t wanna face up the “situation”… I absolutely into the point where the feeling is to defense myself, to protect myself… huuhhh…berlebihan sebenernya……just becuz I don’t wanna get dissapointed someday!! This thing encouraged me to leave becuz if I’d go it means deserting me. I have to run away…

Self protection was in times of true danger
My best defense is to mistrust and be wary
Surrendering a feat of unequalled measure
And I’m thrilled to let you in
Overjoyed to be let in in kind…

I’ve read the sign… (kata Paulo Coulho, dengarkanlah bahasa jiwa…^_^). Well, I’ve decided then… I chose, in the past, becoz I trusted my feelings....I compromised to be with that decision becoz my heart once..said yes it is… Trying hard not to regret things (we all do have that part, don’t we??). Kalo kata Wawing, my damn wise producer… never regret what we’ve decided in the past, coz it’s the best decision we take at that time. Future does have funny ways of showing itself…

Life has a funny way of sticking out on u
When u think everything’s okay and everything’s going right
Well… Life has a funny way too of helping u out
When u think everything’s gone wrong and everything goes up in your face…
(lagunya siapa hayooo….hehe…teteupp gw mah…Alanis gitu yah… -ironic-)

Helping u out… helping me out…

-c-